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You're in a good place now you are listening to
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Perspectives with Ashley Burgess. Welcome back to the Ashley Burgess Podcast.
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And to day we're talking about unhealthy relationships. Unhealthy relationships
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have one common denominator, and that is fear. Whether it's
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a fast and furious love affair, a marriage without getting
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to know someone, not really putting in the time to
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see who that person is and to understand that person,
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or other people who are wanting to have a family
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at all costs and not realizing the kind of person
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that they're having this family, this child with. And it's
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interesting because fear is really all encompassing, the fear of
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being alone, the fear of dying alone, the fear of
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not getting.
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Married, the fear of not having.
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Somebody, the fear of not being able to take care
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of someone or not having someone take care of you,
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the fear of being by yourself. All these fears push
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people into relationships that they really have no business being in.
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And it's interesting because those relationships, even though in the
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beginning it's solving this void, solving this fear factor, but
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these relationships turn into absolute nightmares. And today's podcast, we're
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going to explore these fears, understand these types of fears
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that get us into these types of relationships, and how
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to begin to see through the fear and understand where
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the fear is coming from and begin to address that fear.
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A quick reminder remember.
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The more we focus on something whatever that is, the
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bigger it becomes. A good example is if you think
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about news media, they use fear as a scare tactic
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to make you worry, right, They scare you into worrying things.
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So you see it on the news, something playing out,
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and they're constantly showing it to you. They're constantly scaring
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you with it. They're constantly making you feel more fear.
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You become completely overwhelmed, and you get into this overwhelmed
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feeling because you're focusing on this news story that they
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keep showing you every hour on the hour, and so
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it builds more and more fear within you, making it
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feel more and more realistic, and you begin to own
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that fear. So one of the number one fears for
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a lot of humans in society today is the fear
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of being alone. You'd rather be with someone that you
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can't even stand. But the funny thing is it doesn't
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start that way, right. It doesn't start that way. It's
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not like these relationships begin and you meet this person
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and you can't stand them, and the idea of being
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around them literally, you know, takes away you know, your
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love for living, you know, it takes away your zest
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for life. What happens is you get to know these people,
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and in the beginning, you don't really see that person
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for who they are. You don't really see that person
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for what they're honestly bringing to the table. You don't
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really see them really at all, because you're too busy
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creating this reality.
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In your mind.
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Of this perfect relationship that one can never exist. But
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you start creating this concept in your mind's eye around
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this person. And it's interesting because in the beginning, a
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lot of times these people are great because they're helping
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you create this false reality too by love bombing you
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and giving you.
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Lots of attention.
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Right, But the love bombing and the attention is not
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truly who they are, and that's going to be pulled
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away quite quickly. However, in the beginning, you're like, Wow,
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the this is the relationship that I've wanted for so long.
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This person's constantly thinking about me, calling me you know,
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buying me things, giving me all this attention. It feels
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so good. It's such a great feeling. I absolutely love this.
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And you get all entangled in this, right, and so
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you end up doing everything with this person. You normally
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have absolutely zero personal time of your own. Your life
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has changed. You become literally this person's appendage. Basically, you
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can't leave them. They're like, oh my god, I found
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the love of my life. Right, But it's interesting because
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you begin to be on a daily basis with this
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person and they continue to stretch out this concept with you.
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But it's not until you finally get married to this person,
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have this relationship with this person where this person begins
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to augment and change. And I know that many of
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you are like, wow, they just changed out of the blue,
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like everything started changing. Like you know, she was like,
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you know, this great homemaker and did all these things
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around the house, and now she doesn't do anything and
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she doesn't cook or clean or anything.
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I guess she's changed. Well did she change?
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Or was all that just a version They knew that
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you wanted, and so they played out the version, the
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role right, the Hollywood roll for you, and then they change,
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you know, It's interesting when these roles end up stopping
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like all of a sudden and it's dead in its tracks,
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like they're no longer doing what they were doing forever,
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and now things have augmented. You know, they're no longer
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that stay at home wanting to be there for you,
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this conservative woman, or he's no longer doting on.
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You and there for you.
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It seems like he doesn't have time for you anymore.
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There's all these things that start happening and you're like, wow,
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this person really changed. I don't know how this all happened. Well, no,
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they didn't change. They didn't change at all. They were
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always wearing a mask, pretending to be somebody they weren't.
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And you though there was lots of red flags, right.
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A lot of times we have these red flags, but
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because we have that fear factor of not wanting to
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be alone, not wanting to die alone, not wanting to
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be without family, we overlook these things. Right. There's the
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red flag here. It's like we're in communist China. There's
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so many red flags, right, but we're not seeing it
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because we don't want to see it. And I want
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you to think about that. A lot of us get
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into these marriages, right, and it's not until really like
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year after year one. So let's say you got married.
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You've been together for several months or a year, you
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get married, everything seems good, and all of a sudden,
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the wheels start coming off right, you know, the personality
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starts changing. There's a little bit of anger or resentment
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or tinge that you begin to feel. You know, for
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many of you, you say, well, you know, it was
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like the like right after the wedding, the sex stop,
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like that was all over with like I don't know
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what happened, but that was it. You know, all of
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a sudden, some of you might say, well, it looks
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like doctor Jekyl or mister Hyde. I don't know who's
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showing up. It's at one moment everything was good and
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now we're not. And it's interesting because see it's twofold.
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It's not just that this person was pretending to be
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the person you wanted them to be. You played along
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with this role play. You know, it's almost like y'all
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are at comic con and you know, everything's great. And
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some of you also have these long distance relationships too
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that made it even harder. You were dating, you were
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in different cities. You were seeing each other like every
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two or three weeks. You know, you're jet setting around
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the country, you're hanging at at really great hotels, you're
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eating great food, you're drinking, you're partying. Oh, it's the
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best relationship possible. But then it's not. Then it's not.
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And I want you to think about that, because when
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we get into these relationships, we're creating this in our head.
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We're creating the relationship we want. We're kind of taking
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that other person and wrapping up up in something else, right,
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creating this different reality around them. And then there's parts
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of us too. It's not like this one person is
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like pretending. There's also parts of us that are probably
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on our best behavior, you know, especially if it's a
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long distance thing, Like you're not seeing everything, Like you're
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not seeing like, you know, the personality in the morning.
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You're not seeing the tatted up pj's, you're not seeing
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some of the loose sins, the blind spots. It's all
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perfection because you're only seeing each other a few days
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a month. I mean, it's not really that hard to
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be on your best behavior a few days a month, right,
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But it's very far cry from those few days a
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month to really understanding who this person really is. And
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many of you might even be in the same place
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as far as you're dating. You're together, you're seeing each
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other all the time, you live a few minutes away
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from each other. But again, you're still changing and augmenting
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that person to fit the thought process in your head
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for the best person, like, oh, this person does this
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and that and this and that, and I just love
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this person. That make me so happy. And that's one
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of the biggest interesting caveats too, is this concept of
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somebody making you happy. You know, somebody cannot make you happy.
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They can offer things in your life. They can be
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a helpful person, they can be a harmful person. But
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you should be making yourself happy, not referring to someone
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else to make you happy, because it's remember just as
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much as someone can make you happy, they can make
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you sad. Just as much as someone can bring joy
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into your life, they can also bring pain. The second
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thought that I want to talk about today is many
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of you want a family. You want a big family.
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You never had it. You want this family. You never
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felt like you had the family you wanted. You want
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a big family, and it's interesting because you have these
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people that you know. You kind of look around and
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you're you're meeting folks, and you end up meeting people
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and you find someone that has this great, big family
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and you're like, oh, wow, they have this family I
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never had, and you're not really looking at that person anymore.
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You're kind of taking into consideration their size of their family,
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how you feel the family is. You've been around them
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a few times. They seem amazing. Oh, they have such
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a great family. So it's like, who are we dating here?
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Are we dating this person? Are we dating their family?
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And many of us get confused by that. Seriously, I've
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had many clients who said, Oh, I met their family
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and I knew this had to be the person that
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I got married to. Well, you're not marrying the family. Okay,
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I just want to say that for the record. I've
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seen too many of these situations go bad. Okay, you're
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marrying this one person, it's not the family, and so
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you're no longer looking at this person. You start like
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judging them by their family dynamic. And it's kind of
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funny because now you've gotten into a relationship with this person,
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but you're actually more in a relationship with a family
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than you are with this particular person. And this could
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be really painful because some of these relationships do not
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work out. Most of them don't. And so you're trying
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to keep this relationship working, which is hostile sometimes at best,
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at some point out for the marriage, and you have
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some of these family members that you really like and
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you really care about. But eventually you know that this
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marriage is not going to work, so you're going to
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have to get divorced. And you also realize that over time, unfortunately,
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when you get divorced from this person, you're also going
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to lose this family. So this entire concept of instant
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family goes out the window. The thought process of this,
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you see what I'm saying. So one big caveat is,
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I know many of you don't have.
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A big family.
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Many of you only had a single mom or single
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dad raising you.
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You didn't have that really great well family nucleus.
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Maybe you didn't have any brothers or sisters, or you
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had a brother or sister die or something like that.
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And I know that we're always trying to like get
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that close knit, you know concept, But it's I found
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that friends can do that for us. We can meet friends,
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we can connect with other people, We can have a
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close knit group of people around us. It doesn't have
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to be people who are married into. Another interesting situation too,
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that I find with people is you have what I
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call the only children, the only child. When you were
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an only child, you didn't have brothers and sisters, You
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didn't have like this really cool family dynamic. You were
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on your own. And many only children didn't have a
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lot of help. They didn't have a lot of parental guidance.
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Parents were working or traveling. There was no brothers and
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sisters to really connect with. So for many only children,
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it's a very lonely dynamic. And I understand that, and
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so many of you out of fear of having that
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loneliness growing up lonely mom and dad were always working,
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or dad was not in the picture, or mom was
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not in the picture, and you were kind of raising yourself.
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For any of us, I know, in my demographic, for sure,
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like in my age group, my demographic, even you know
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around that within you know, like a like a ten
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year you know, span of time, many of us raised ourselves.
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We took care of ourselves, we made our own food,