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You're in a good place now. You are listening to
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Perspectives with Ashley Burgets. Welcome back live to the Ashley
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Burgess Show previously known as Livirtrue Life Perspectives, and on
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today's podcast, I want to discuss and really deep dive
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into how we allow our brain to talk us out
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of what actually happened, what was said in a situation,
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and what events that transpired and took place, because I
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find it very interesting how we can talk ourselves out
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of something or into something, and sometimes what really took
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place is completely different than what we remember or how
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we process it. We can actually create narratives in our
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head to change what took place to better fit our lifestyle,
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our narrative, what we want in our life. We change
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and augment things because we tell ourselves one thing, or
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we need to live this life, or we need to
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be in this situation, or we need to be in
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this relationship, or we believe that we should be in
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this career no matter whatever that is. And this happens
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in real situations as well, like current events, where we
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will change it like something really did happen, and then
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you're like, well, there's no way that actually took place
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there's no way, and so we make up an entire
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narrative to make it easier on ourselves to not get
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scared of things, to feel as though we have a
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really good beat on things, and so on today's show,
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I really want to discuss that, and more so even
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not just how we do it in current events, right,
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and things that happen you're like, oh my gosh, did
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that really happen? And we color it and we change
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it and we make it out to be something different.
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But I want to talk about it in relationships and
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how we do that in our relationships today. Many of
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you are doing this in your marriage, in your current relationship,
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even maybe at your job, your career, or in your
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family dynamic, maybe even with your parents or what have you,
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and you're changing and augmenting things from what's really taking place,
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and we need to be able to see and recognize
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this as happening. Why it's important to recognize it is that, well,
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when we change what really happened, we kind of find
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ourselves in a pattern, right, because many of us change
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things because we don't really want to see the truth.
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We'd rather avoid the truth or avoid the situation and
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hope that things will get better on their own. And
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I think that some of us are in these patterns
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of action because maybe we've been down this road multiple
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multiple times, maybe with somebody different or maybe the same person,
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and we just don't want to deal with that. We
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don't want to have to argue it, we don't want
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to have to shine light on it, what have you.
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And those are things that we really need to look
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at in today's podcasts. So in our relationship, we tend
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to rewrite history, making either somebody the angel or somebody
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the devil. And some of you are not, you know,
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black and white thinkers. So I'm not saying many of us,
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you know, see obviously shades of let's say gray. But
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I do find that interesting when I work with clients.
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Most of my clients are the avatar that is coming
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from the position of, Hey, I've just gotten this new
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relationship with this person and they're telling me that their
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ex is a narcissistic abuser. You know, what do you
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think about that? And you know, sometimes that could be
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the case, but it depends on how we see the
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concept of narcissistic abuser, right, I mean the way that
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you probably see it is the way I see it
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where it's somebody that's you know, a bully and all
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self centered and mentally and emotionally putting somebody down and
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gas slighting them and manipulating them and hurting their feelings
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where that could be their definition or their definition could
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be very different, and so they can color their exes
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as devil and horrible people and abusers and what have you.
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And then you have some people out there too where
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you know, they lose a spouse or they or they
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or a relationship falls apart, and even though the relationship
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was you know, smattered with lots of problems and difficulties
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and issues, and maybe that person had some issues of
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their own, maybe lots of issues of their own, you know,
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the other person still, you know, colors them as this angel,
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this amazing person that got away, this amazing angel. This
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you know they couldn't do and they could do no wrong,
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you know, they put them on that pedestal and they
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think every day about they lost out on this amazing,
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perfect relationship. And I find that the narratives that we
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create keep us in patterns of thought, they also keep
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us in patterns of manipulation and control. Right, So if
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you are in these types of patterns, there's somebody probably
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on the other end who is controlling you, controlling in
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the narrative, and you're allowing them to as well. And
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so you know, when we have tendencies of being people pleasers,
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of trying to help people out of trying to do
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the right thing, and many of us come from, you know,
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the people pleasing kind of standpoints. As far as when
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you were being raised, there were issues and problem dynamics
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in your family dynamic, right, so you know, if you
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had this perfect childhood and mom and dad were amazing
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and everybody was like, you know, very supportive and helpful
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and and committed to being there at the highest level,
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you know, I don't think you'd be tuned into this podcast,
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and you know your life would probably be amazing right
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on all levels, because you would have been given the
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fuel to be able to come from a space of
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not limitation or feeling bad about yourself or trying to
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be better or trying to get attention from others, because
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you would already have it right. It wouldn't be something
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and you wouldn't have to be in that code dependent
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stance because you know, they would be giving you what
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you need and vice aversa, you wouldn't have to be
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helping them to get the attention you need from them,
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you know, in order to facilitate this type of codependent relationship,
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right where I do these things for you, and therefore
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you care about me. But if I don't do these things,
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then you don't and you're incapable of taking care of
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yourself as well. Talking about the parent dynamic, right, And
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so when we come from that dynamic taking care of
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mom and dad or mom or dad, and we find
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ourselves giving and giving and giving and not even knowing
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exactly if you know, we necessarily want to give all
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the time, or if this is really coming from an
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altruistic place, or is this just coming from the fact
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that now my entire concept of my value has become
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based on the fact that I do things for other people.
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And that's how I was raised as a child, coming
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out of the situation with the parent dynamic. And I
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think many of you fit this avatar. And so when
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you find yourself in different relationships, you begin to try
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to tackle the big issues with these people and try
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to help them, But at the same time they're doing
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things that might be very negative, possibly very unhealthy or
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maybe even manipulating you, and we'll go into that and
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you know, instead of really looking at it honestly, you know,
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maybe we discard that because of the fear of being
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alone or the fear of abandonment, or we keep wanting to,
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you know, help that person out because we feel if
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we can help them, then that adds to our values.
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So even though they might be fighting us and shooting
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a hole in the boat, we're still trying to patch
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the boat every night as much as we can because
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our value is about getting that boat to safety. With
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everybody concerned, we're not really thinking about our own mental, emotional,
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and absolute spiritual safety that we need to have. So
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we color what are the events of things that happened
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with our feelings and emotions right, the needs that we have.
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So something might be really bad, and maybe we're in
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a relationship that's very toxic, but yet you know, we
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wake up every morning, you know, telling us says, oh wow,
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you know I live in this great house, or you know, hey,
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things are going to get better, or you know things
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have gotten you know, things have been good in the past,
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and so we sleep on things, right, we sleep on
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things and in the process of sleeping on things. Many
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of us revert back to the beginning of the relationship.
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You know how great the beginning was, and the connection
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and the conversations that were had in the beginning, and
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so we use that as a point where this was,
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this was there in the beginning, this was this was happening,
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This was actually real, This really took place. Now, we
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don't we don't want to acknowledge the fact that, yes,
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there was a pedestal phase and some people might have
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been loved bombing us, or it was the newness of
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the relationship, or people weren't being extremely honest and there
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was still a mask on that sort of thing. We
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don't want to see any of that. We just know, Hey, back,
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you know seven months ago or two years ago or
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five years ago, you know this was actually working. And
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so I'm gonna wake up and pretend to some degree
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that this never happened. And some of you are so
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good at it you actually forget the events of each night.
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Because I think there's a lot of PTSD going on,
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because there's these negative patterns. You're trying to change things,
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things won't change. And so if I just sweep it
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under the rug, I don't really think about it, maybe
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things will be better today. And I find that one
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of the most helpful things that you can do, and
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I personally do it as well with regards to specific
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relationships in my life, is I keep a tally a
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notebook of situations, circumstances and events that take place. And
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I keep that because I like to keep and it's
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not like a record, so to speak, but I like
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to keep a mental record for myself. So there's certain
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things that I don't forget. I don't try to colorize,
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I don't try to change or augment, because there's patterns
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in many people's actions, and there's patterns and things that
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people do that if we actually begin to see it clearly,
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we begin to see it clearly, we can have power.
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And now I want to give one caveat because I
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know that some of you might be thinking, huh, well,
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you know, maybe if I sweep it on the rug,
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eventually things will get better, and you know, there's a
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possibility for anything. But also the longer we sweep it
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under the rug something that's constantly happening, the longer we're
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in this toxic, unhealthy relationship, the more time we're wasting
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in our own life, the more time of our life
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that we're putting on the back burner, you know, and
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think about it, it's like, Okay, do you want to
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keep wasting the time in this situation? And I don't
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mean to say wasting, because you know, tough lessons are
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not necessarily a waste of time. But do we always
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want to go through the tough lessons constantly? And do
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we want to elongate these tough lessons out for years
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upon years upon years. And I know some of you
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out there saying, well, I'm already in five years of this,
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you know, And I understand too. It's the time I
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put all this time and I put all this effort
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in and I get that. I understand that. But sometimes
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we have to step back from that narrative as well
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and really ask ourselves, like what what do we really want?
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You know, what would really be important? It's not about
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making us happy. We can only make ourselves happy. Like
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when I hear people say, oh, he makes me so
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happy or she makes me so happy, it makes me
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want to vomit. And the reason for that is not
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because I'm like rude and crude. It's just because if
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somebody makes you happy, they can also make you really sad.
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If they can make you sad, for example, if they
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leave and you're distraught, right, that's not going to be
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healthy for you. Not to say that we don't want
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to have emotions in our relationship, but you don't want
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to give somebody like your entire happiness, like, oh, because
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they're in my life, I'm happy. But when they leave, okay,
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so then what happens. We have to actually make ourselves happy.
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And happy is such a weird, kind of strange blanket
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word that really doesn't have that much meaning. We have
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to make ourselves content, I think content at peace. As
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far as you know, you don't have this racing brain.
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You're not freaked out all the time, you're not stressed out.
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You know, when somebody's inner out of your life, it
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doesn't make you go from one extreme to another. Instead,
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you can be very level. And that's what's very important,
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because we have to create the stability in our own life,
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and then that stability needs to be like an anchor.
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That stability needs to be like the foundation of your home,
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which is your body, where you can control that. You
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don't want someone else in control of that foundation, you know,
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where they can demo that at any moment, or they
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can add pain to that, or they can pull up
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the rugs from up underneath you. And some people might
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get some joy from that as well. And unfortunately, there's
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a lot of people out there that manipulate and control
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with because of their own psychosis and issues. Right, because
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you know, an unhappy person, an unhealthy person, you know,
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is coming from that fact of a hurt person. Right,
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So a hurt person is going to hurt people, Okay,
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and when you get involved with a hurt person, they
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will hurt you. I know that you might think that